Kiss the rain..~

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

So why am I still here in the rain..

Anak buah baru...

Haha, sorry lah guys.. Terlambat lak gua nak buat entry yntuk malam ni seperti yang dijanjikan.. Tadi petang gua sempat rushing gi HUKM coz dah pukul 5 lebih, waktu melawat sampai pukul 7Pm je kot.. Leka sangat cakap ngan phone tengah drive dalam hujan tadi, sekali gua terlanggar lobang besau kat tengah jalan tu coz tak perasan punya pasal.. Habis rim keta..! Cinabeng betol, dalam pulak tuh..!

Ipar gua bersalin dalam kul 8Am pagi semalam.. Due date memang dalam bulan May nih, tapi tak sangka lak dia labour awal bulan, tapi takpe, senang ingat besday dia nnt.. LOL.! Masa depa dok scan baby few month ago, Doct cakap baby girl.. So dapat la gua anak buah perempuan yang ke-3.. Ingat nak namakan dia Aisyatul Amani coz nak samakan ngan nama kakak dia Aisyatul Ayuni, memang sweet dapat baby girl kan.. Dalam labour room tu abang gua eksaited habis nak dapat 2nd baby, last2 kuar baby boy.. Oh gawd.! What a miracle..! Muka dia memang sebijik muka bapak dia, cuma idong je ikot mama dia.. PMSL.!

Fuh.! dapat lagi gua anak buah lelaki, boleh main futsal sama uncle nanti kan anak2.. *berangan jadi uncle tua jap.. LMAO.!

So, sebelum gua balik rumah tadi, sempat la singgah rumah kak long gua tadi.. Dapat gak gua melepaskan rindu kat anak2 buah gua yang lain2 tuh.. Cepat betul masa berlalu, dulu depa suma punya kepala besaq tapak tangan ja, la ni dah besaq panjang.. Habis lunyai gua kena lanyak ngan depa suma, tak menang tangan nak dukung masing2.. Depalah pengubat hati gua yang luka dan dah lama terpendam nih.. Hurm.. bila cakap pasal anak, rasa macam nak ada anak sendiri pulak, tapi mampoo ke..? SWSL.!

Sempat la gua snap pict ngan depa suma tadi, nanti ada masa gua hapload la.. Maka sampai disini sahaja lah untuk catatan gua untuk pagi nih.. Mata gua pun dah stim nak terlelap nih letih punya pasal, so gua undur diri dululah ye.. Chow.!

Tak ada benda nak cakap..

Actually, tadi dah siapkan satu entry, tapi malas pulak nak publish coz tak siap lagi.. Berlambak dah kot draft entry suma, asal gua nak type entry je hilang idea, tapi yang pasti setiap post yang gua buat tu semua tima gua tengah meroyan/menganjeng/menyalak suma bagai.. Btw, gua dah delete account Facebook gua, so tak payah nak search/tanya mana FB page gua ok..

One thing I'd like to spit out here briefly, if YOU read this my dear, I will always love you forever and I won't stop loving you.. I promise that on my own life.. I don't have that strength to face up with u anymore so I'll just see u from afar.. I'm not a man who'd easy to say love words to anyone, I'm a man of his word, once I said that, that it'll be my decision.. Even though you thought me in other way coz people's blinded u, but trust me, I'll be prove it to u one day how deep my love towards u.. I never lie to u my king.. To those who got feelings towards me, I'm really sorry, I just can't love u like I love him.. Though I had ever say that I love u, but I can't lie to u and I can't make u as replacement of him.. I'm really sorry.. This is my true confession, I won't lie when it comes bout love..

To that person: Fyi, I still kept all of ur text message in my phone inbox.. Those lovely moment that we had even it's not that long, but for me it's priceless and I won't forget that.. Take care Leo, I'll always be by ur side, I promise that..